Le Journey : 2017

Assalamualaikum 💖

Hello, a quick update here. It's now 7:51 am and I've got a class at 10 but I suddenly have the urge to write something so here we go!

It's already November now. To be really honest, I didn't think I could survive here in UiTM. This is my first time being away from home all by myself, so my homesick level was no joke guys. Everything I did reminded me of home. The songs I listened to, the people I saw, just about everything. It's so bad that I thought of just dropping out and find some college near Seremban or something (strangely it only happens on Mondays, Monday blues is real guys). But everytime that happened I would tell myself, "Just give yourself a week, if you're still like this, just go ahead and quit."

But since I'm still here, of course I didn't quit. I became okay after a few days (my strategy worked). As I got busier with more tests, quizzes and assignments, and oh not to forget, college activities, it got easier for me. I mean, I still get homesick but not as bad as before. I still get excited at the sight of Seremban Prima, I still feel like hugging Seremban whenever I'm there, but no more crying done. I'm proud of myself haha😂.

Roommates, classmates, and classes are all okay here so far alhamdulillah. There's this one English class about public speaking that is mandatory for me to take. *sigh* In this class we have to give two speeches; informative and persuasive. Everyone who knows me would know that I would do anything to avoid giving speeches in public. Anything, you know. I'd rather study 24/7 than do public speaking. I just really hate to be the centre of attention, unless it's what I have to do (like being the MC during my prefect days).

So I just did the first speech last Monday, which was informative speech. I dreaded every minute, every second that I had to wait for my turn. I wanted it to be over real soon but at the same time I really hated the thought of doing it😣. I knew I was only going to do it in front of my class, but still, I just knew them for less than 2 months. Then I got up and spoke and... I think I did well? Well to me it was good because I didn't stutter and all that but I might've spoken too fast to finish speaking quickly. But well done, girl! *pats dear self* But I still have persuasive speech to go... which is a lot longer... sigh.

Oh, another thing! I have two beautiful babies now😍.

So, Iman Publications opened a booth at PTAR UiTM since who knows when, and I only found out on Tuesday through their tweet. Then I went there the next day with such an excitement I can't even describe! I was soooooo so so excited when I got to the booth and I nearly jumped because weh oh my God precious books were everywhere! Mato's books (my favs) were there as well as Teme!💓💓 I haven't bought some books after such a long time so it was really thrilling for me😆. The last time I bought a book was Hiatus by Mato but it was through online payment and the feeling was different hehe. Aw I really miss the book smell! Now I've got to find some perfect time to read them.

Till the next post!💘

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Assalamualaikum 💖

I'm inspired to make this post today after watching a YouTube video called 'WHY I QUIT SOCIAL MEDIA FOR A YEAR AND WHAT I LEARNED'. Click on the title if you want to watch it.

I, too, have quit social media before.

I quit Facebook in 2013/2014 because it was getting lame (ONLY IMO DON'T JUDGE).

I quit Twitter in 2015 because of personal reasons.

I didn't have an Instagram account before because I thought it'd be too much pressure.

I literally avoided any social media that would allow me to know other people's news, and vice versa. I kind of kept my life low-key and only people who know me in real life would know what I was doing. In other words, I cut off any connection with people online, but you might've seen me once in a while on other people's accounts.

Nothing much changed after I deactivated my Facebook account because I didn't use it that much. But after I uninstalled Twitter from my phone (I didn't deactivate it), I can tell you that my life did change.

I used to be on Twitter 24/7. There was a point in my life when I would literally tweet everything that I did and thought. After that phase, I started to tweet less nonsensical things and more to advice kind of thing. This phase only stopped after I uninstalled Twitter.

For the first few days without Twitter, it was really weird for me since I was so used to scrolling the tweets. I got used to it after a while and basically lived my life without social media. Wherever I went, I saw people on their social media but it didn't bother me as I thought I was free from 'social media pressure'.

Whether you admit it or not, you must've been under that kind of pressure at one point in your life. Your friends having more followers than you, your friends getting more likes and retweets than you, your friends looking prettier or cooler than you, your friends posting better-quality photos than you do. All of these create pressure, making you feel insecure, no matter how mild. As if your happiness depends on social media. This is the reason why I avoided Instagram before, because I knew it would cause more pressure than Twitter did.

Look, I wasn't that pressured by it but if possible, I wanted to escape that kind of life, that kind of addiction, and so I did. Some people asked what I did at home if I wasn't anywhere near social media. See, life does not revolve around social media. When you stop using them, you're able to do other stuff you couldn't before.

I have to admit though, I don't even know if I became more productive or not since I was taking STPM. There were already lots of things to do even without social media, so I guess I wasn't as much distracted. I didn't keep up with things that other people did, so I wasn't bothered by petty issues.

The thing is, as I got addicted to YouTube, there are YouTubers that I like and (of course) they own social media. I'd like to keep up with them but couldn't because I didn't use social media anymore. It was only until this year did I suddenly start using social media again.

Although I didn't quit blogging, I started becoming active once again after I changed my theme last June.
I started using Twitter again since WWBookClub existed.
I created my Instagram account last raya because I was missing out too much as a youngster.

What I learned is that, it sure felt good to be free of the social media addiction. I enjoyed it a lot (though last year I started using Pinterest and got real addicted to it). The consequence was that I felt old, because I was missing out on what others already knew. I'm only 20 and when people talked about things that went viral, I got confused as hell. That is the main reason why I'm back on social media.

Since I learned a lot from social media already, I no longer feel pressured because those things that I mentioned above don't matter at all. I only use and post things when I need to now. EXCEPT for this blog because I'm so in love with it!😍

Conclusion: Love yourself. Love your surroundings. Love what you have. Put yourself and reality first before social media. Don't get too addicted and affected by social media. You're already pressured by life, don't let yourself feel pressured by social media. Focus on your life before social media (unless your life and job depends on social media). Do what makes you happy!😋

P.S. I have a feeling that this post is going to be the most productive post in this blog😂.

Till the next post!💝

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Assalamualaikum.

Okay ini bukan post pasal raya but selamat hari raya anyway! Mula-mula nak update pasal hari raya but then there are a few stuff that I want to talk about. I'm going to fit them all in one post since each of them will be short.

Differences and Similarities
I had a discussion with this close friend of mine about a kind of sensitive issue the other day, and we had different opinions. We couldn't see eye to eye or maybe we just didn't get what each other means. I think it was the latter but somehow I could see the tension there. After that, I thought to myself. Malaysia is a multiracial country, but we embrace our differences and stand together in unity. Why? Because despite our differences, there are a lot of similarities between us.

Walaupun pemikiran tak sama, tak semestinya kita tak boleh bersatu. Memang hakikatnya cara manusia berfikir lain-lain, nak buat macam mana lagi, bak kata peribahasa, rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain. Jadi, kalau berbeza pendapat pun, selagi boleh selesai, selesaikan baik-baik. Jangan biar melarat. Ketepikan perbezaan yang satu tu, banyak lagi persamaan yang lain.

Sacrifices
Look around you. You might see people smiling, laughing, or frowning. Behind their happiness, there's a sacrifice. Behind their pain, there's a sacrifice. Sacrifices that they keep to themselves, or let others know about them. You don't know their stories, so don't judge. Be nice to everyone instead. (oho, this could be a spoiler for my next post!)

Sirius Black
You see, Sirius is my favourite character from Harry Potter. Every time I read the part where he dies, and the way Harry copes with it, I'd cry. I feel like my heart dies with him, because he was just there laughing then all of a sudden... Poof. That is why I can't agree with other Potterheads who hate Dolores Umbridge the most in the series, because to me Bellatrix is at the same level as her. I hate everyone who causes Sirius' death indirectly. Bellatrix, Narcissa, Kreacher, Harry, Dumbledore. I hate them all. Although Harry is the main character, he can't help but show his stupidity in every single damn book... Well, he also can't help being an imperfect human I guess. That's the reason I love him again every time.

Actually, there are a lot more stuff that I'd like to talk about here. BUT I figured it would be better if I talk about them in different posts since there's a lot to talk about.

Well, see you in the next post!

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