It's the 13th of Ramadan already, which means I haven't blogged for quite some time now. After the last post, I tried to write stuff but they didn't get published because I ended up not knowing how to continue the posts. As time passed, it just got harder for me to write haha just like what happened last time.😂 But I'll make sure to publish this one though insyaallah.


So it's my first Ramadan being away from home. To be frank, I thought I was going to bawl my head off especially during berbuka since I couldn't fast with my family. But then I was too busy with tests and quizzes to actually feel THAT sad. When my friends were being all sorrowful because they had to berbuka without their family, I just sat there being like, okay. Of course it would be nice to be with my family, not that I wasn't sad at all, but since I go home every week I guess it didn't hit me that hard. If not I might act up like I did in my first semester haha.

Updates?

Alhamdulillah, this second semester hasn't been all that bad compared to the first. I can relax much more this time, I'm not quite sure why. It just became a bit hectic towards the end of the semester. Oh, I'm currently enjoying my mid-semester break, knowing that all hell is going to break loose next week. I've got a quiz, four tests, one group project that isn't even halfway done due next week, and pop quizzes might pop out anytime then. Just thinking about it stresses me out but hm here I am writing on this blog. As always.

Secondly, one of my close friends in UiTM has dropped out last week since she's got an offer for a sponsored nursing diploma. It kind of brought me down when I first heard it, to be honest. Nevertheless, I thought to myself, if I got the offer that I wanted, I might've left as well. Allah SWT placed me here for a reason, a hikmah behind everything. Also, it's a better offer for her, so why not? I only hope for the best for her, and for us that's left now.💞

I think that's all for now. Insyaallah I will update 'soon', but I'm not sure how soon.😂

Till the next post then!💕

Hello, a quick update here. It's now 7:51 am and I've got a class at 10 but I suddenly have the urge to write something so here we go!

It's already November now. To be really honest, I didn't think I could survive here in UiTM. This is my first time being away from home all by myself, so my homesick level was no joke guys. Everything I did reminded me of home. The songs I listened to, the people I saw, just about everything. It's so bad that I thought of just dropping out and find some college near Seremban or something (strangely it only happens on Mondays, Monday blues is real guys). But everytime that happened I would tell myself, "Just give yourself a week, if you're still like this, just go ahead and quit."

But since I'm still here, of course I didn't quit. I became okay after a few days (my strategy worked). As I got busier with more tests, quizzes and assignments, and oh not to forget, college activities, it got easier for me. I mean, I still get homesick but not as bad as before. I still get excited at the sight of Seremban Prima, I still feel like hugging Seremban whenever I'm there, but no more crying done. I'm proud of myself haha😂.

Roommates, classmates, and classes are all okay here so far alhamdulillah. There's this one English class about public speaking that is mandatory for me to take. *sigh* In this class we have to give two speeches; informative and persuasive. Everyone who knows me would know that I would do anything to avoid giving speeches in public. Anything, you know. I'd rather study 24/7 than do public speaking. I just really hate to be the centre of attention, unless it's what I have to do (like being the MC during my prefect days).

So I just did the first speech last Monday, which was informative speech. I dreaded every minute, every second that I had to wait for my turn. I wanted it to be over real soon but at the same time I really hated the thought of doing it😣. I knew I was only going to do it in front of my class, but still, I just knew them for less than 2 months. Then I got up and spoke and... I think I did well? Well to me it was good because I didn't stutter and all that but I might've spoken too fast to finish speaking quickly. But well done, girl! *pats dear self* But I still have persuasive speech to go... which is a lot longer... sigh.

Oh, another thing! I have two beautiful babies now😍.


So, Iman Publications opened a booth at PTAR UiTM since who knows when, and I only found out on Tuesday through their tweet. Then I went there the next day with such an excitement I can't even describe! I was soooooo so so excited when I got to the booth and I nearly jumped because weh oh my God precious books were everywhere! Mato's books (my favs) were there as well as Teme!💓💓 I haven't bought some books after such a long time so it was really thrilling for me😆. The last time I bought a book was Hiatus by Mato but it was through online payment and the feeling was different hehe. Aw I really miss the book smell! Now I've got to find some perfect time to read them.

Till the next post!💘

Soooo here comes my midterm break! Guess who's ecstatic?!

ME!!!! OVER HERE, PLEASE, LOOK AT ME, IT'S ME!!!!!😆💓


Haha okay what a way to start a post, right? But anyway, I arrived at Seremban last Friday and I was super duper excited since I finally got a week break from Shah Alam weeheee! If Seremban is a person I'd hug Seremban for sure!😂

You know it's funny when I used to say 'Seremban takda apa yang best' and blabla (well it's kinda true but no, not really) but when I'm far away from home, I'm like, 'I miss Seremban's sunshine, I miss the sight of Seremban Prima, I miss Seremban's weather'. Aw I don't know man I just miss Seremban where my home is so deeply and now that I'm here, I feel like I'm never gonna leave this place! But of course it's impossible... *sigh*

I'm talking as if I haven't been in Seremban for such a long time haha but in fact, I've been coming home every week since I enrolled EXCEPT for this one week when I had 'Hello Senior, Welcome Junior' program on the 1st of October. It was like my faculty's orientation program and basically we had to go to the checkpoints all around UiTM (do you have any idea how big Shah Alam campus is?!). My legs almost gave out and I almost lost my sanity due to the exhaustion (a big hyperbole there). But still, it was fun and my teammates were cool so here's the picture!


Oh, and I've got an interesting story to tell you, which is related to the title; 'A Bittersweet Day'. So my schedule last week was super packed from Monday to Wednesday. I finished all my assignments on Monday and Tuesday because I had kawad for Wednesday night. I kept on telling myself, 'Just a few days left. Only a few days then you'll be free.' as I was very much worn out physically and mentally those three days. Then Thursday came and I was happy since I only had Organic Chemistry lab that morning and after that I'd be freeee!

Lab finished at around 10:30 AM and I was virtually skipping all the way to my college. I felt excited, ecstatic, and everything that defines happiness, so I bought nasi ayam penyet and air lemon mint (?) something I don't remember. But it was sweet and sour so it was just nice. Then I dropped by the mini mart to buy Twiggies for my breakfast tomorrow morning and once again I got excited because I was going home tomorrow so yay!

So with my food and drink in both hands, I climbed up the stairs to my room on level 4 while singing Lenka's The Show. I was being like, 'Lalala I'm so excited I'm free the whole day~' and I arrived at my door. I put down my food and drink and inserted my key at the keyhole.

The usual 'click' sound didn't come. I couldn't open my door.

But I was still being positive and was like 'Meh I'm probably too excited that I can't put in the key right!'

I tried again. But no. I tried again and again and again BUT I STILL COULDN'T OPEN IT AND I STARTED TO PANIC! I even asked the girl next door to try and open it for me, but it still didn't work. At this point, my happiness level dropped from 100% to 10% at once (not 0% since it's still a funny situation). I asked my roommates about it but I guess they were still in class so me, being so pasrah, picked up my food and drink and went downstairs to make a report to the office regarding the situation *sigh*.

That is what happens when you're too happy okay. I did NOT see it coming at all. When the door was fixed, we had to duplicate the new keys so we went to Seksyen 7. While we're at that, why not grab something to eat, right?

There goes my bittersweet day.

Till the next post!💝

It feels like forever since I last updated my blog haha but it's only been a couple of weeks actually.


So, I've been at UiTM for three weeks, and my classes started last week. I still have the confusion of 'where am I' every morning when I wake up because, well, I'm supposed to be at home but where. is. this. place. This is not my bed. This is not my room. Where is my bolster? WHERE IS MY PHONE POUCH? Ha! It's game over for me when I can't find my pouch because that's the first thing that I reached for when I got up every morning at home but now it's not here! The shock from it usually wakes me up instantly.😂

I usually wake up early if my class starts at 8 to avoid waiting for people to come out from the showers because obviously, I hate waiting😪. I used to eat nothing during recess just because I didn't want to queue up at the school canteen (so terrible, I know, but I've changed ok). Then I'd have my quick breakfast depending on my mood and how long my classes will be. The breakfast part was tricky at first since it had been too long since I last had my breakfast at 6 in the morning ok?? But of course, I adapted later on since I can't not have breakfast.😂

Classes are okay (so-so). I'm not much of an enthusiast at studying so yeah, that's it. Even more so, the journey to class is so, so tiring that it's become my major problem here. Ok I might be exaggerating but really, all I can think of are stairs, stairs, and more stairs... Phew. Therefore I try to think positively by telling myself that I can build up my stamina this way. My schedule from Monday to Wednesday is too packed for me (I don't understand why they say our schedule is not so packed??) because my last classes end in the evening *wipes tears*.

Here, you can define myself as homesick because I FEEL HOMESICK ALL THE TIME. I keep wishing that I'm home wherever I am and whatever I'm doing at the time. For example,

'My favourite show is showing right now so I need to go home!'
'I need to wash my clothes using the washing machine at home!'

Just stuff like that. My homesickness got so bad one time that I even considered quitting all this but alhamdulillah it got better. Well, it did get better but it's not gone alright. I still feel homesick every now and then. I even installed this app for counting down to my mid-semester breaks and all sorts of breaks I'm going to have in the future.😂 But seriously, it hasn't even been a month yet since I enrolled?? WHAT A SURPRISE. HOW COME IT FELT SO LONG FOR ME!😭

Okay, on a more serious note, I do miss blogging so much! I just want to hug my precious blog and express how much I love and miss it and oh how important it is in my life aw my sweet little baby😻. I wish I can blog everyday to record everything that's going on in my life right now but nah I don't think it's possible BUT I will update it from time to time so I won't go on hiatus for months like last time insyaallah.

Till my next post!💕

Okay, first of all, I'M OFFICIALLY IN LOVE WITH THIS NEW TEMPLATE!💝 At first, I didn't want to use it but I couldn't resist the temptation... So here it is! My blog is soooo prettyy I love it so much 😍

Second thing, I got accepted to UiTM Shah Alam which I'm very grateful for (sebab senang nak balik). To be honest, I was genuinely scared if I get the Perlis campus because it's so far weh what if I get homesick? I've never been away from home without my family for more than 3 days, so how do you expect me to stay there for a long time? Yeah I know, "be independent", BUT I CAN'T, AT LEAST NOT NOW. I was so scared that I asked everyone to pray for me so that I get Shah Alam campus hahaha and alhamdulillah dapat jugak Shah Alam I nearly cried😊

Third, Queen for Seven Days aired its final episode last Friday. It was so, so heartbreaking 😭💔. Like the teaser said, it's the most tragic love story in the history of Joseon. I cried a lot while watching this drama, starting from the second episode. I think this is the first time that I really felt touched by the characters. I felt happy when they're happy, and sad when they're sad. The final episode itself was heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time.😟 I really recommend this drama to everyone who loves romance and super melo kind of drama! If you want to cry, you should watch this. It's the most beautiful love story I've ever seen in dramas and movies! I'd watch it again and again if I have all the time in the world.😆


Last one, I went to Taman Basikal in Seremban with Syer and Faiqah last Saturday. I haven't cycled for like a decade (I think) so it was so awkward as I kept losing my balance. The kids took weird glances at me haha but it was really fun (though tiring)! You only need to pay RM 2.10 for half an hour which is very cheap.



Till the next post then!💘

Okay, you know how I said I was going to take some time to publish this one post? (not this post btw) I was working on it, to write something that makes sense for the first time ever in this blog *touche* BUT I think I failed miserably hahaha.

It's just so unlike me, you see. I tried to discipline myself by planning when to edit the post until I finally publish it, but *clears throat* it was no easy task. IT IS SO HARD TO DISCIPLINE MYSELF😩. I eventually got annoyed with the post since it's really difficult for me to stay focused on one post since usually I would just write whatever's on my mind and publish it on the same day. That way, the idea won't go away or get mixed up with other ideas I get on other days.

The problem with this way is, my posts end up sounding ridiculous sometimes as though I don't think... (at least it appears to me that way) Even though it could be irritating, today I officially accepted the fact that I can't change ha ha😌.

It's so funny to me that every single year my number one resolution would be to stop procrastinating, but did I change? NO. It kept on repeating until 2016 when I knew I would never stop procrastinating. I mean, I always avoid to procrastinate, but I can't help it most of the time...😣


That's the proof. As the answer for the first one, nah girl it's 2017 and you still haven't changed. As for the second one, ha ha funny you, you knew you would still procrastinate, didn't you?😏

And yup, I read my old posts... and there were quite a few things I found funny about my younger self😬. My thinking and writing style change with time. In some of them, I wanted to be poetic, but they turned out quite idiotic due to some exaggerated metaphors. The thing that I find funnier is that, I was actually serious about them!😂 I want to share them here but nah it makes me cringe AND I also don't want them to be posted twice in my blog haha.

See, I could just delete them like my other posts, but I want to keep them as memories so yeah why not?

Oh gosh I just realized what I did. DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN NOW? I was here to talk about how hard it is to make that one post and I started talking about random things that came to my mind. This is why most of my posts are usually not related to their titles...

It seems like it's bound to happen to me every time I lose focus and intention to write. I don't know about other bloggers but really, as I start a post, it seems like it's going well until the time comes for me to end it. Then it sounds pretty absurd to me *sigh* but I post it anyway because I love myself!😍 (nah jk, because if not it would waste my time lol)

Till the next post, I guess