Dari it's 2024, now it's 2025 already hahaha.

I just installed the Blogger app on my phone, so yes this will be the first post that I'm posting through my phone hihi. Selama ni malas nak install sebab rasa macam app ni leceh tapi okay je rupanya. It's been too long since I've written paragraphs and that's the reason that I'm back here on Blogger. I miss writing (as I always say). 

I feel like my brain's functionality is reducing as I neither read nor do math these past few years. Sometimes it makes me wonder how in the world was I a top student when my memory is like this? I keep forgetting stuff. But I guess our IQ can change as time passes by. If we continue to utilize our brain, insyaallah our IQ will stay or get higher. But if we don't, me now is what we become haha. Polished stuff don't stay shiny forever. You stop polishing it, then time will tell you whether it loses its shininess or starts to rust. Ah gitu.

Semoga dengan ini saya mula membaca dan buat math balik. Amin!

Hahaha tiber sangat tau. Padahal asalnya nak cakap pasal benda lain. Cam biasa lah kan tak pernah nak straight to the point. Anyway, before I start my story, long story short, alhamdulillah I delivered my baby boy last September hehe. That will have to wait another post haha because todayyy what I want to write about is...

RSV.

Respiratory syncytial virus.

Sebelum ni pernah je dengar pasal RSV dekat tiktok which memang kesian sangat tengok baby kena. Mostly kena warded, nafas lekuk, wayar cucuk sana sini. Luluh hati bila tengok sebab terbayang dah perasaan ibu dia. Kita pun of course lah dah baca apa simptom yang kita kena take note kan (moga dijauhkan dari anak-anak semua). Takut ya kalau kena.

So anyway, my 10-month-old baby caught a fever one day (sebelum tu dah on off fever for 3 days). Pergi klinik, check darah, okay alhamdulillah. Next day still panas tapi on off. 3rd day malam before tidur tak rasa panas, after 2 hours macam tu tiba-tiba panas sangat. Bagi ubat then decide nak jumpa pakar esoknya sebab risau lama sangat demam.

Pakar suggest buat swab test and guess what? RSV positive. I was shocked tbh cam "ha RSV ke" tapi senyum sebab tak tahu nak react macam mana. Tapi Dr advise buat neb daily je and tengok macam mana. So of course lah I didn't think it was that serious. And kitorang pun macam ok ok je since baby aktif macam biasa even though demam + batuk + selesema. Takde nampak lemau ke apa.

Next day macam dah perasan nafas dia laju sikit. Petang tu masa nak buat neb (dekat klinik lain), Dr pun mention nafas dia laju so dia nak refer hospital. At this point, I was still macam in denial sebab baru semalam pakar tu kata buat neb daily je?? And the way she explained, this wasn't like a serious issue?? So I said, "kalau monitor kat rumah je tak boleh ke Dr sebab dia aktif je" as I imagined all the wires connected to my baby and I couldn't take it. TAKUT. Then, what the Dr said just made my heart drop.

"Boleh tapi risau sebab nafas dia laju. Jantung kita ni guna muscle and kalau laju sangat lama-lama apa jadi dekat muscle tu?"

"Penat..."

Sumpah takut masa ni. Pastu masa baby buat neb + sedut kahak ha memang menangis lah haku dekat situ.

Malam tu jugak pergi KPJ tapi tak ada bilik kosong since kes RSV kena stay dalam bilik yang single bed. Call private hospitals lain pun sama, tak ada kosong. We had the option to go straight to HTJ but we just wanted a faster process gitulah kononnya. Esoknya datang balik KPJ jumpa pakar. What he said, though, made my heart drop for the second time. 

Katanya baby nampak sesak nafas, kahak banyak. Masa tu still tak ada bilik available so dia suggest pergi HTJ terus sebab dah lambat, tak boleh tunggu lagi. I was so scared. To be very very honest I didn't expect that sebab alhamdulillah baby memang aktif je main macam biasa although dia tak sihat. Here I learned that kita tak boleh nak memandai when it comes to children's health. Sebab anak-anak tak tahu nak express rasa sakit tu. Kita nampak diorang okay tapi boleh jadi sebaliknya.

Lepas ambil neb (disertai tangisan baby dan mamanya), terus shoot pergi Kecemasan HTJ. Hampir berlari ya aku dibuatnya. Dekat sana, nak naik baran jadinya jumpa doctor yang judgmental. Doctor lain okay je. Dia sorang je gitu 😭 sakit jiwa raga jadinya. 

Bila dah dekat hospital, sambunglah lagi drama air mata baby + mama ahaha. Anak nangis, mak nangis. Anak tak nangis pun tetap maknya nangis agshshs. Tak bolehlah eh tengok anak sakit. First time dia kena pasang wire kat hidung untuk oxygen tu. First time kena cucuk IV drip masuk air. Tengok anak orang lain kena pun dah nangis, apatah lagi anak sendiri. 

Duduk emergency tu 7 jam++ sebab kena tunggu patient lain discharge dekat wad. Malam tu husband jaga. First time ya balik rumah masuk bilik tidur sorang sorang. Nangih la jugak. Lahh tak habis-habis nangis hahaha tapi gitulah kita ni hati tisu jugak sebenarnya. Selalu pam susu malam memang terus masuk botol sebab baby akan bangun minum. Tapi masa tu terus pack dalam storage bag sebab baby kat hospital. Cedihhh lagi. 

Lupa cakap. That very same day dekat hospital, baru nampak baby penat. Sebelum tu memang aktif sangat tapi kali ni nampak letih je nak tidur je. Risau jiwa raga. Tapi alhamdulillah the next day nampak aktif balik and dah boleh off oxygen hehe yayy. But since dia masih taknak minum susu/makan, still kena masuk air lagi. Luluh hati tengok bibir kering sampai berdarah hm.

After 2 days baru stop masuk air. Then once dah makin better minum susu and result darah pun okay, alhamdulillah baby discharged setelah 4 hari 3 malam dekat hospital 🥹 Sepanjang dekat hospital tu teringat je moments kena stay hospital seminggu masa nak bersalin haritu haha.

Alhamdulillah. So so so grateful Ya Allah. Rasa bersyukur tak terkata bila anak dah sihat. Masa mula-mula masuk tu, terus cari zikir apa nak baca waktu tak sihat and I found this:

Just sharing the zikr here. Banyak kali ulang baca dan doa supaya baby cepat sihat, cepat discharged. Tak sanggup tengok anak tak sihat lama sangat. Alhamdulillah, Allah kabulkan doa tu, berkat doa ramai orang yang sama-sama doakan baby jugak 🥺 Allahuakbar. Hanya Allah yang Maha Menyembuhkan ❤️

Lessons learned:

1. Be extraaaaa careful bila diri sendiri tak sihat/bawa anak keluar sebab kita pun tak tahu dan tak boleh nampak virus tu dekat mana. Tapi semoga tak sampai jadi paranoid lah.

2. Bila anak demam, always check suhu sebab memang tu je Dr akan tanya. Segala history sebelum dan sepanjang anak tak sihat pun silalah ingat sebab semua Dr akan repeat tanya balik.

3. Kalau rasa tak sedap hati, check je. Kalau ada apa-apa, insyaallah boleh detect awal. Kalau tak ada apa-apa sekalipun, alhamdulillah. Hati dah lega. Takdelah asyik terfikir-fikir.

Sampai sini dulu. Till the next post!

(Moga-moga soon. Hehe.)