You know that feeling bila masa cuti, sibuk nak sekolah, tapi bila dah sekolah, sibuk pulak nak cuti?

Sebab tu yang aku tengah rasa sekarang.

I'm halfway done packing my stuff. Well, I'm only packing for the MDS week so yeah takdalah banyak sangat barang sebenarnya (BUT STILL A LOT THOUGH). I no longer feel excited + nervous now because the only thing that I'm feeling now is I'M NOT READY YET.

But come on, cuti 10 bulan kot takkan tak ready lagi kan? I guess I'm mentally unready because wei I don't feel like studying at all doh like seriously NO. I had a super long holiday and suddenly I'm entering university now and Idk man everything feels so surreal to me. Of course, I'm very grateful to be among the chosen ones who got accepted to a public university but Idk la I'm just not ready to meet new people, to study, to be away from home, to do just about anything on my own instead of with my family.😩

I know I can and will be independent there but really I'm just too lazy to do anything right now. My feeling about entering university is changing every single day and today just happens to be "I'm not ready". I mean like, there's only a few days left ok I need to watch Return of Superman on Sunday (which is totally unrelated to this but whatever) so how can I not have mixed feelings about this.

Luckily, alhamdulillah, it's somewhere a little bit familiar since I've been there before soooooo yeah, although I'll need help with the roads but whatever, I've got to step out of my comfort zone.💥