Assalamualaikum, hi ♥

Hello there, once again boohoo. Another post in a week by me! Miracle of a new year bhaha. I'm gonna be 17 next year, which is tomorrow. Like seriously, dude? SEVENTEEN. Ten years ago I was entering a primary school, but next year is gonna be my last school year, can you believe it? Time flies so fast. 2013 feels like seconds. I can barely remember everything that happened in this year, honestly. Most I can remember is me procrastinating, procrastinating and procrastinating. Lots of time that I could use for studying are wasted. Gosh when will you ever change girl?

17. What does it mean? On July 14th The Trace will break and I can use magic freely weehee then I can apparate here and there without getting in trouble! Yup muggles aren't supposed to understand this. Just thinking about it gets me really excited. I can't wait for this day to come!

The problem with 17 is SPM. Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. Gosh I'm so not ready for school. I'm so not ready to struggle all the way till SPM. I'm so not ready to learn new chapters. Like wow I haven't even understood what I learnt in form 4 now you expect me to learn other things that will blow my mind? Seriously? Aih serves you right serves you right serves you right Nor Syafiqah Farhah. Serves you right. You had plenty of time but you did useless things. Serves you right.

As for this year, I've got only one resolution. This one, whether I want to or not, I have to do it. Even if I have to fight with my mind my soul my body my heart. This is it.

I MUST NOT PROCRASTINATE.

Assalamualaikum, hi ♥

These days I've been thinking about how I have different sides to my personality. I can be real crazy at times, but I can be super quiet other times. I can be childish, I can be matured. I can be intelligent, I can be dumb enough. I react quickly, then other times my mind takes a long time to react. I prefer to be around poeple, then I prefer being alone.

My mind responds differently to every different situation. It depends on who I am with and where I am. The more I think about it, the more I can't identify myself. I dn't know what my real personality is like. It's like a bunch of people with different personalities are combined together and tadaaa they form me! I know it sounds weird but that's what I feel. I feel lost.

Who am I? Why am I here? What am I supposed to do? This positive thinker has turned to a weirdo. Even I would laugh at myself sometimes because this whole thing is really funny. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think. When I bump into some situations, I become more sensitive than usual because my mind can't cope with it. It feels like the luggage is already full but more things want to get into it until it can't be closed any more. It might even break. Some things need to be taken out in order to lock the luggage again.

Do you get it now? But the difference is my mind is full of emptiness. I think, yet I think about nothing. That nothing feels like everything. It does sound weird but just shut up. My feelings aren't empty, my mind is. My mind won't fill itself with things that need to be thought deeply. I envy those children with carefree minds. That makes me want to go back to my childhood once again. Adolescence is complicated.

Hey, it's fine. There's nothing wrong with having different sides to my personality. I'm unique, that's why. Now this positive thinker is back.

About the typos, they're just a challenge I made for myself in the last post. 

Assalamualaikum, hi ♥

We meet again boohoo. I just listened to Rock N' Roll and the lesson is, we should be ourselves and don't mind what others say about us. Whew I love Avril, her songs give me inspirations, help me get stronger. I think it may be because aku minat dia since I was 8. See, ada sesetengah minat kita boleh bagi inspirasi. So start finding your own minat and get your inspirations.

Kelakar tak kalau aku end post dekat situ? Macam segan je masuk-masuk cakap pasal Avril lol haha hit me. Alang-alang start dah pasal inspiration, aku nak sembang pasal inspiration. Unplanned ok unplanned, sebab mula-mula aku nak cakap pasal likes and dislikes aku tup tup eh inspiration keluar nak buat pasal inspiration keke next post aku nak type tanpa henti tanpa guna backspace langsung.

Tak cerita dia macam ni. Avril tu related to music and ada orang inspiration dia music. Kau cite apa ni monyet, syok sendiri betul. Dalam bahasa mudahnya, ada banyaaakk benda dalam dunia ni boleh jadi inspiration dekat orang. Batu pun boleh jadi inspiration kau tahu, yelah inspiration untuk jadi kuat macam batu tu. Bila kita suka someone, someone tu pun boleh jadi inspiration. Family, kawan, crush, love, semua tu lah. Pokoknya, inspiration tu boleh datang daripada macam-macam benda dekat dunia ni. Bukan setakat dunia, akhirat pun boleh jadi inspiration.

Bagi aku, inspiration ni fungsinya untuk bantu kita jalani kehidupan seharian, bantu kita berjaya, etc. Ya, memang, ada agama untuk lead kita dalam life ni dah cukup, tapi sebenarnya tak cukup pun. Kau bayangkanlah, kau patuh dengan ajaran agama kita, tapi kau takde inspiration pun. Macam kau tak ada tujuan hidup. Sama jugak dalam belajar. Ada orang nak kerja jawatan tinggi, tapi dia tak minat pun belajar. Kenapa? Sebab dia belum ada inspiration yang betul-betul kukuh untuk move dia. Antara inspiration tu is ibu bapa dia, idola, gaji banyak, etc.

However, sometimes, inspiration kita boleh hilang. Ini yang buat kita rasa macam I don't wanna live anymore I hate this world and whatsoever. Our inspirations memang boleh affect life kita. Broken-hearted people are the best examples.You see, ada orang bila patah hati, memang life dia miserable betul, macam hilang arah hidup for a while. Sebab? Love is their inspirations. Contoh lain pulak, batu tadi. Batu boleh pecah, hancur, so dia start fikir, oh can my life be destroyed like that? Bila negative thoughts muncul tu yang problem. When this happens, we need to think positively, everything's gonna be okay. Next, he/she needs to find a new inspiration or hobby. Contoh? Diamond.