Assalamualaikum, hi ♥

These days I've been thinking about how I have different sides to my personality. I can be real crazy at times, but I can be super quiet other times. I can be childish, I can be matured. I can be intelligent, I can be dumb enough. I react quickly, then other times my mind takes a long time to react. I prefer to be around poeple, then I prefer being alone.

My mind responds differently to every different situation. It depends on who I am with and where I am. The more I think about it, the more I can't identify myself. I dn't know what my real personality is like. It's like a bunch of people with different personalities are combined together and tadaaa they form me! I know it sounds weird but that's what I feel. I feel lost.

Who am I? Why am I here? What am I supposed to do? This positive thinker has turned to a weirdo. Even I would laugh at myself sometimes because this whole thing is really funny. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think. When I bump into some situations, I become more sensitive than usual because my mind can't cope with it. It feels like the luggage is already full but more things want to get into it until it can't be closed any more. It might even break. Some things need to be taken out in order to lock the luggage again.

Do you get it now? But the difference is my mind is full of emptiness. I think, yet I think about nothing. That nothing feels like everything. It does sound weird but just shut up. My feelings aren't empty, my mind is. My mind won't fill itself with things that need to be thought deeply. I envy those children with carefree minds. That makes me want to go back to my childhood once again. Adolescence is complicated.

Hey, it's fine. There's nothing wrong with having different sides to my personality. I'm unique, that's why. Now this positive thinker is back.

About the typos, they're just a challenge I made for myself in the last post.