First:

Have you experienced a situation where random people just enter your dream and you can't stop thinking about him/her when you wake up? It just lingers in your mind for who knows how long. At times I'd dream that I have a crush on someone and when I wake up, I still do and the feeling would stay for days. Dreams can affect my emotions that way.

This morning, I don't know why (well I never did) I had a dream about this person. Let's call him A. I haven't been in contact with him for almost a decade now, and I don't think I will ever be. I ran into him awkwardly in the dream, but we had a small talk. All of a sudden the conversations led to this (sort of):


I remember feeling dumbstruck at that unexpected statement. I was triggered when he talked about asking for his permission, because he was no one to me. But when he said the next sentence, I was angry but dumbfounded at how true the statement was. I was like, he couldn't have known me that well in less than a year. I was puzzled.

I know, I know, it's just a dream. Mainan tidur. But that statement alone made me think a lot. I always avoid social events, unless I really have to go, or I'm the one who wants to go. I know myself that well so why I was hurt by what he said, I have no idea. I kind of hate him for appearing in my dream, although I know it's nowhere near his fault.😟


Second:

Yesterday, I went to Big Bad Wolf for the first time in my life and I ended up buying eight novels for myself :') The price range of the books I bought was in between RM10 - RM15 each doh no wonder I saw people bring boxes of books home when they went to BBW. I feel guilty for my already-purchased books that I haven't yet read ugh I promise I'm going to read them this semester break okay!!

8 mine, 8 sis', 2 bro's

Third:

Remember the SolidWorks project that I talked about in the last post? Alhamdulillah, I'm done with it now!! Both the project and final exam! The project consumed so much of my time. I had to do it for our Mould and Die Design course. If I had done it earlier, I probably wouldn't be as stressed out though. The problem was that I didn't understand, yet didn't even bother to find out how in the world I was supposed to continue with the project until Week 13 came. With two of the seniors' help I was able to make progress, but not quite as I still didn't understand the purpose of the project, and why I was supposed to do stuff that way. The seniors were busy helping my other classmates so I couldn't possibly ask them to explain in detail.

Hence my friends and I decided to ask this friend of ours for help since he was almost done with everything. Sis I tell you, if we didn't come to that decision, we'd be crying right now. He helped us understand the project better, and even helped us assemble the components. I can't even express how grateful I feel for his help, so here's an appreciation post to you.

Sorry that I panicked a lot, and thanks for staying calm and helping me when I did. Thanks for being patient and explaining what you said (again and again) when I couldn't seem to understand. Thanks for letting us steal days that you could've been done with the project, just so you could help us with it. That's the thing that I'm most sorry about, yet very thankful for.

Would I have done the same if I was in your place? A day or two, maybe. But days? I would've had to reconsider that, especially if I wasn't even done with my work yet still. I would've wanted to get my work over and done with before I could help others. I'm insufficient like that. That's the reason I'm so very thankful for what you've done.😭

While doing this project, I found that I panicked a lot when things didn't go as planned. It reached a point when I realized that I was about to panic and I was like, "No, not again, please don't panic. Calm down, I beg you." I only panicked a little but I panicked more when I realized that I was panicking. Now I don't know how people with panic attacks handle them doh the attacks must be awful.😰

To end this post, I'm just going to say that I actually named my project 'Sleepless' because of the nights I spent trying to finish it (also in commemoration of the Sleepless In _______ album😂). Let me introduce you to my baby Sleepless now!

Full assembly. It looks simple but man the energy and time it took me :')

A huge thanks to you and my friends who have been helping me from the beginning until the end. We made it, guys. We made it. All the tears will be worth it, insyaallah. I'm praying that all of us pass this course with flying colours, and none will have to repeat this course :') We have three more exams to go now, hwaiting everyone!!

Till the next post!💘

Hello there hehe it's been super loooonngg since I actually talked about something here. It's the toughest semester yet. Two subjects are killing me currently. I'm done with one of them but I still have a project to finish for the other one.😕 I'm actually, really, scared if I fail anything this semester. They're too hard to score and I can't bear to repeat them in the coming semesters. Like NO. The project that I'm doing is based on SolidWorks ugh I'm still struggling with it. It sounded doable and easy during our first lecture, but now I feel like crying because of this. I can already go home right at this instant, but this project is holding me back. It feels impossible for me to do it by myself.

Do I regret not starting the project much earlier? Yes, I do.

I just wanna go homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee



But anyway, Selamat Hari Raya everyone! It's been a week but as long as it's still Syawal the greeting is valid ok haha. My family's theme for this year was maroon. Frankly I disliked my baju raya at first. I only bought it because while going out with my family, I was the only one left who hadn't found anything to wear at the time (this happens every year tbh😂). At one point we found a baju kurung which I wasn't that fond of, but my sisters said that it was pretty. I felt like my family was getting tired of walking around, in and out of shops, and even I was getting tired and annoyed at myself like WHY can't you just find one outfit WHY?! Hence I decided to just take that baju kurung. I didn't like it since I bought it when I was upset at myself, but on the first day of raya I was like "Oh cantik jugak" HAHAHAHA. Dahlah kau mengada je lebih eh.

I thought of writing a short story and post it here, but unfortunately my creativity has long since left my soul. The last time I actually wrote a short story was probably during my SPM days, both in Malay and English hihi. Maybe I'll start something and Idk if it turns out good, I'll post it here. If not, just forget the fact that I even said it in the first place. But even if I were to write one, it's going to have to wait until I manage to find the time to write about what I did last February hehehe I'M SO EXCITED!! Insyaallah I'm going to start with it this coming semester break hehe💖

I think that's about it. I just wanted to make a short update here since I miss blogging so much.😟 Pray for me and wish me luck for this unfinished project and also final exams that are going to start next week!😋

Till the next post!😸

I WENT TO THE SUPER JUNIOR D&E CONCERT!!

A lightstick that I borrowed from a kind ELF

The ticket and handheld banner

Our new view!

We took the picture in a rush as people started screaming, signalling the start of the concert!

The lights were beautiful and I was proud of participating among the blue ocean of lightsticks💙

Never forgetting this experience :(

The only freebies that I got 😂

Aside from the freebies, we bought D&E lanyards outside the venue after the concert just to add to our poor amount of freebies. 😂 I don't even wear my university lanyard but I was sooo proud of wearing Eunhyuk lanyard all the way back to Seremban. Eunhyuk was my first SJ bias, and I found out that Donghae was Ain's first SJ bias, and now we're both back to having them as our biases. 😝