I WENT TO THE SUPER JUNIOR D&E CONCERT!!

A lightstick that I borrowed from a kind ELF

The ticket and handheld banner

Our new view!

We took the picture in a rush as people started screaming, signalling the start of the concert!

The lights were beautiful and I was proud of participating among the blue ocean of lightsticks💙

Never forgetting this experience :(

The only freebies that I got 😂

Aside from the freebies, we bought D&E lanyards outside the venue after the concert just to add to our poor amount of freebies. 😂 I don't even wear my university lanyard but I was sooo proud of wearing Eunhyuk lanyard all the way back to Seremban. Eunhyuk was my first SJ bias, and I found out that Donghae was Ain's first SJ bias, and now we're both back to having them as our biases. 😝

It's the beginning of March. My fingers are excited to dance on this keyboard after nearly two months of me being absent here. Phew. Can't believe that my semester break has ended and I'm back here in Shah Alam for a new semester. A LOT of things have happened during my break and insyaallah I'm going to write about them soon!

After the all-suspenseful Sky Castle, I'm currently binge-watching Meteor Garden and I just have to say this. I've read a lot of fictional books and watched tons of movies and dramas. Every time I read or watch something good, I almost always fell for a guy in the story, be it the lead or supporting character. Gosh I can't even count how many times I fell in love with the characters. Right now, I'm falling for Meizuo (a supporting role) in Meteor Garden. You know how the guy eventually gets his heart broken? Whenever this happens I would feel like getting myself in the plot and ask the girl to stop hurting him and if she doesn't want to I'm willing to replace her but at the same time I know I'm not good enough for him and I won't ever be able to replace his true love so I'd get emotional and angry because I don't want him to be broken anymore but I can't do anything not even moral support since I'm not inside the story itself and the only thing I can do is to hope that the author/writer would get his heart healed soon enough ugh THE WRITERS SHOULD'VE PUT ME IN THE PLOT SO I CAN PREVENT EVERYONE'S HEARTS FROM GETTING BROKEN BECAUSE I KNOW HOW IT'S GOING TO END OKAY YOU GUYS SHOULD LISTEN TO ME!

Phew. I said it, although mengarut I'm not deleting it because I just HAVE to say it. And Meizuo, you better be happy in the next episode! I'm going to hunt that girl down if you're not.




But anyway, back to the title, KL Bird Park! Yes, the bird park!

It's a beautiful place I tell you

As usual, Ain has been asking and planning where to go before our semester break ended, but this time we were thinking of going with Mimi! Her real name is Freakimi but whatever. So we made it on the 4th of February and I was so excited because it's been a while since I last saw that creature HAHA. I was half an hour late to KTM station and I felt sorry for it, but she started being weird as soon as we met and I was like... Okay Ain you deal with her.😂

We took a commuter train to KL Sentral, and a GrabCar to the bird park. Ain said the ride reminded her of when we went to the BTOB Fan Meeting last year, and I immediately felt the vibes from that day. Ugh I still miss them.😞 We reached the park and bought the admission tickets for just RM20 using Watsons card! If not, the normal rate would be RM25 when you present your IC at the ticketing counter.


We got in, but hey did I ever mention about my fear? I'm scared of a lot of moving things and that includes birds... It's a beautiful place and I enjoy watching the birds from afar, but the idea of them walking up to me? I'm definitely not a fan. Most of the birds would be roaming around freely. Whenever big birds were nearby I would clutch onto Mimi and Ain's bags in fear of them leaving me behind. I know it's embarrassing but I can't help it you see.😡 What if they harmed me or suddenly decided to fly in my direction? I knew they wouldn't really but you know what I mean.😒

Hello this is my friend its name is burung termenung

Has anyone seen Hedwig?

HELLO POLICE SOMEONE'S TRYING TO ESCAPE

Hey there I know you're pretty and all that but you scare me out the whole time

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL FAMILY👪

Aw look at this sleeping beauty!

We didn't go to watch any of the bird shows, and went for lunch instead. There's a Hornbill Restaurant just outside the bird park. You can choose either to dine inside or outside the restaurant, and duh of course I'd choose to eat peacefully inside without any of the birds flying to me when I was having my lunch. I honestly don't remember the name of the dish that I ordered, but both me and Ain had different kinds of fried rice, while Mimi had spaghetti (excuse my brain almost a month has passed). A bit pricey but reasonable for its big portion.

Look at these suweg pipol

Afterwards we decided to go to the National Museum! Yay? 😂 Hahaha we initially planned to only go to the bird park but we finished walking around much earlier than expected so that's where we decided to go. But I've always wanted to go there so yay another place ticked off my (imaginary) list! Only RM2 for the entrance fee, but we bought tickets to one of the galleries as well so we had to pay double the price.





We finished walking around at about 3:30 p.m. We were going to drop by the coffee shop in front of the museum but there wasn't a lot of choices, hence Ain did her work to search for nearby cafes 😂. Sometimes I feel like she's the only one who's good at technology because I can't really find anything when I search on the web HAHA.😂 So heereeee we go to LOKL Coffee!

By the time we arrived, they were only serving desserts and drinks. It's perfect because we didn't really want anything heavy. We ordered brownies each and iced chocolate for me! Ain ordered some kind of weird drink (SORRY😹) and for Mimi, coffee as always. Weh I tell you the brownies were soooo so good I loved it!😋 By the way, we were the only local customers at that time, the others were all tourists.😆



After that we went back to Seremban, but we had a mini panic episode at the LRT station. We thought we were going the wrong way so we got off and we panicked a little. But it turned out that we were going the right way. Man the whole day was hilarious to me.😂

Thank you to the both of you for spending the day with me, especially to one peculiar human being called Freakimi. She just keeps getting weirder and weirder every time I met her. At times I don't even know how to respond to her so I'd pass her to Ain.😂😂 We rarely had the chance to meet so I really appreciated you spending time with us that day. I'm not by any way annoyed with your weirdness, in fact it makes me laugh every time. Here's to more meetups and laughter in the future!



Till the next post!💕

Hi guys! I'm finally publishing this post two days after I attended BTOB in Malaysia. It took me a while to post this because this event is very momentous to me, so I'd like to keep it as a precious memory by writing as perfectly as I can.

But first, I'm going to warn you that I might get too excited because I already AM ecstatic right now. (Click here to play Warning by Day6!)

Another but, but I feel super guilty for Day6 though. They just had their comeback but I couldn't focus on them since they came back during my Week 14. When the hectic week was over, I needed to prepare myself for BTOB concert, so I promised myself to start streaming Day6's new songs on Monday. However, here I am, on Tuesday, still unable to move on from BTOB members. *sigh* I'm going to try to move on ASAP seeing that tomorrow is our Brian's birthday!🍰

Alright, first things first, Ain is the one who planned the trip and bought the tickets for both of us, so thank you! I've known BTOB since their debut, and I really loved Insane and Irresistible Lips because of how catchy they were, but after those two songs, I think I lost track of their updates. I did listen to some of their new songs but I wasn't much of a big fan. I only started paying full attention to them again when Missing You came out. That song left a huge impact on me and I couldn't move on for a while. Ain being a big fan of BTOB really wasn't helping, because she let me know what the members are really like and that made me grow fond of them. The end!

Okay it's not the end. It's really the beginning of everything that I'm about to tell you. I don't know if it's going to be a lengthy post or not, but I'm going to go through a lot of phases of editing before I post this. I want to keep these memories forever so I need to let everything out. Prior to the fan meeting, I bought myself a blue scarf and a white blouse to match the theme, which is blue and white! I also practised the fanchants for Missing You, Only One For Me and Beautiful Pain and listened to some songs of them that I didn't know. All because I didn't want to go as a clueless fan (but I still became one in the end). It felt like I was studying for an examination oh my.

D-Day. I woke up feeling like, it's the day! It's the day that I'm going to see Ilhoon! (Yes, Ilhoon is my bias, but I love all of them tbh) It's the day that I'm going to melt when I see him up close! I got ready and tried to make sure that I looked good to meet him later HAHA it was like getting ready for a date.😂 The thought of seeing them all kept me smiling to myself the whole time.

We took the commuter rail to KL Sentral and then a GrabCar to MITEC. We were already excited to see people wearing blue at the KL Sentral because for all we knew they could be Melodies too! When we reached MITEC at around 10:30 a.m. though, we couldn't see any single person alive, and it turned out we were supposed to come in through the North Entrance, not the south one. After that, I was literally skipping my way to the elevator since I was so so so so excited, I was thrilled at the thought of seeing Melodies in blue and white and to actually arrive at the venue. When we arrived on the third floor, we heard voices and saw people in blue and white gathering. It felt like I turned into an electron who got promoted to the highest level possible. We went to collect our tickets at the redemption counter, and there were standees of each member near us. Man it felt unreal that I was going to see them that afternoon.

The standees

We collected our tickets and got excited again because oh gosh what if we were selected for the photo session?! (30 fans were selected for the photo session) We chose our spots outside the hall and sat down. I read out the serial numbers on our tickets while Ain was checking the numbers of the lucky winners. Nevertheless, both of our tickets weren't on the list. It was quiet for a while. Remember how I said I couldn't stop smiling whenever the thought of meeting the members crossed my mind? Well, this was the first time that I lost my smile. I don't know, I wasn't expecting much but still I was pretty disappointed about not winning anything. We both quietly ate our sandwiches until we saw a crowd forming nearby. AAAAA we got up at once to collect the freebies given out by the Melodies. My spirit was lifted up immediately the moment Melodies started distributing freebies.😝

I was exhilarated when I got this since it was so hard to get his photocard!

The handheld banners by Melodies hehe

Anyway, our queue numbers were 525 and 526, but I was relieved to find out that the queue number would be up to 1000, so we'd still be the first half to come into the hall. I was and am honestly grateful to all the Melodies who provided the freebies like the photocards, button badges and handheld banners. BTOB Malaysia even handed out LED finger lights for those who didn't have lightsticks, and I think it was very, very nice and considerate of them. (OH MY GOD RIGHT NOW BEAUTIFUL PAIN IS PLAYING AND I WANT TO CRY) Of all the photocards, I got only two of Ilhoon oh my it just wasn't my luck. I even got a poster of BTOB! I think they were randomly selecting people with red stuff to give out the posters, so thanks to my red bag, I got one! But I gave it to Ain already since she promised to go to the Day6 concert with me next year if they were to come to Malaysia! (KEEP YOUR PROMISE)

I could see fans from all over the world coming. Indonesia, Philippines, South Korea, Taiwan, etc. Weh legit I envy them all for being able to come all the way to another country just to see people that they love on the stage. Anyway, Ain and I were separated for a while to collect photocards. All of a sudden I heard people screaming and I was like wait what's happening right now. I thought it was nothing at first but the screaming continued for a while and I panicked because I was too far from the scene. I started to make my way through the crowd only to find out that some of the members had already gone inside the hall! I WAS LIKE WEH WHY DIDN'T I GO EARLIER I COULD'VE SEEN THEM! Ain said she saw Sungjae and probably Ilhoon as well. But it's okay since I was going to see them later anyway (GWAENCHANHA GWAENCHANHA GWAENCHANHA😭).

We started queuing up some time later, but we were only allowed to enter at 4:30 p.m. according to our queue numbers. Before we entered, the management team checked our bags. Now, I said previously that I got a poster earlier right? At that time the poster was still with me, so I was stuck because I couldn't bring it in. The man said that I had to keep it at the lost and found counter. I was speechless but I held my groan in. To be frank, I felt like leaving the poster right there and just go inside because I needed to choose the perfect seat to view the boys! But macam sayang nak tinggal so I still did as required and went in afterwards. I was annoyed at first since it took a while for me to get in the hall, but I'm fine now because those people were just doing their jobs and I actually salute them for their great work.

Going in the hall, I saw that Ain was already waiting for me. We chose the seats on the right side of the stage where they already placed hand fans on the seats. I kept giggling while waiting because I couldn't believe that I was going to see them right in front of my eyes, and not on screens anymore! I had to put my spectacles on because I wanted to see them clearly (what a halmeoni).

We're in!

The hand fan that was placed at the seats

It was around 5:05 p.m. when they entered with Missing You. Screams were heard all over the hall, and I was one of the contributors. I saw them perform with my own eyes, guys. RIGHT. IN. FRONT. OF. MY. EYES. I SAW ILHOON SUNGJAE HYUNSIK MINHYUK CHANGSUB AND PENIEL ON THE STAGE DO YOU KNOW HOW UNREAL IT FELT?! I ONLY SAW THEM ON TV AND PHONE AND RIGHT THEN THEY WERE STANDING IN FRONT OF ME! SINGING! DANCING! TO MY FAVOURITE SONG!

Gosh. I never thought my voice could get that loud. I didn't scream intentionally, they just came out involuntarily. I couldn't help it. They looked so damn unreal, yet so real as if they just came out of the screen. Their voices were amazing too. They sounded exactly like they do in their songs. I didn't take a lot of pictures or videos since I decided to just enjoy the moment.

I COULD SEE THEM IN FRONT OF MY OWN EYES

Credit to Ain 💥

All of them were too handsome and cool in real life. How they acted in videos that I watched, was how they acted in real life. I can't forget how playful and funny they were then. The emcee was Hani Fadzil, and in my opinion, she did a reaaallyyy good job at it. She taught them how to say I love you in Malay, and when Ilhoon said "Saya saaaaaayangg awak!" I JUST LOST IT BECAUSE IT WAS TOO CUTE OMG IS THIS GUY FOR REAL! Hyunsik followed suit and of course, Ain went crazy. She also taught them some other words like lapar gila, cepat sikit, ah stress and lek lu hahaha weh I can't doh the way they pronounced them was way too adorable! They stole my heart!💓

For the first session, it was Melody's Wish where the boys each picked one post-it note by Melodies on the board that they placed outside the hall. I regretted not writing anything because I could've been chosen! Ugh I was pretty annoyed. The second session was playing games, where both the members and Melodies had to guess the BTOB song that was going to be played for one second. It was really fun although I didn't know a lot of their songs. One of the funny moments was when the song started with someone's breath and Hyunsik kept claiming that it was his breath oh my goodness hahaha for two songs tau. Fans that were able to answer correctly could come up on the stage to get the presents directly from the members themselves. Weh at this point I was too jealous like I wanted to answer but I didn't know the answers to them?! I probably only knew about four songs out of all the songs that they sang. Man I was so sad. I regretted not being a Melody much earlier. Every time they did or said something cute or funny (YELLOW CARD FOR JUNG ILHOON😂) I lost my mind doh. I think my sanity was practically rotting away the more I was there.

Jung Ilhoon can you not?!😕

Then the ending came. I was surprised because it felt too short. They each said their ending ments and I felt overwhelmed by them. After that they performed Beautiful Pain man I tell you it was so painful for me. The time passed by so quickly and out of the blue they had to leave. For encore, they performed Our Concert. I didn't even know the song but I enjoyed it so much, until the end.

Here are some of the ending ments by the members (credit to Bolt Korea MY):


I don't know man this is too heart-wrenching for me. I know it's going to take a few years before all of the members can come back together to Malaysia, with the military enlistment and all. Not just to Malaysia, but to see the whole group perform again on the same stage, it will take years. After this, Minhyuk and Changsub are going to enlist, like real soon. The fact that I got to see them (although not as a whole) before their enlistment, touched my heart. I don't regret spending money to see them one bit.😊

What happened afterwards was the highlight of the day. The moment that I would remember and treasure for the rest of my life. (HELP MISSING YOU IS PLAYING I'M MISSING YOU BTOB!)

Goodbye Session. We stood up row by row to meet the members up close. We probably got less than 5 seconds each to bid all the members goodbye. When it was my turn, I remember looking at Peniel and he was looking at me so I waved him goodbye. I also saw Minhyuk, I'm not sure if he looked at me or not because my eyes dropped at Ilhoon at once. Once our eyes met I just couldn't and didn't want to break the eye contact so I kept looking at him smiling at me for those few seconds. LIKE LITERALLY HE WAS LOOKING AT ME WITH HIS CHARMING SMILE FOR SECONDS THAT FELT LIKE AGES. It was as if the world stopped spinning and there were only me and Ilhoon looking at each other for those few seconds. That look and expression of him, I don't think I can ever forget that. I couldn't move my eyes to anyone else once my eyes landed on him. I was entranced by his presence. I know it sounds cheesy and all that, but for real, for those few seconds, it felt that way. Up close, he was just in front of me waving his hands at me and smiling at me that I felt enchanted. I really didn't want to break that eye contact we had but I had to keep moving oh gosh I need more time to meet the boys up close 😭😭

I BETTER STOP THERE BECAUSE I MIGHT NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT HOW JUNG ILHOON LOOKED AT ME WITH HIS CAPTIVATING SMILE AND HOW WE MAINTAINED THAT EYE CONTACT FOR A FEW SECONDS.

Yet, I do have a regret because I can't remember seeing Sungjae, Hyunsik and Changsub up close just because I was too stunned at Ilhoon's presence. This is too sad and funny at the same time :') Like, they're all right in front of me but I didn't even see them. Not even a glimpse! Weh I'm speechless doh just WHY WAS I LIKE THAT.😂 Your existence itself is too strong, Jung Ilhoon.😍

All of us each got one poster of BTOB outside the hall, and I also got back the poster from the lost and found counter. Frankly, I was still in a daze after meeting them all, especially after those moments with Ilhoon. I just couldn't believe that it was real. I really had a lot of fun, I enjoyed the moments I had with BTOB and Melodies. This was my first concert (fan meeting) so it meant a lot to me. It was a special one as well. I'm satisfied with everything, from the management team, to the emcee, to my seat, to the interactions, and to BTOB. The only thing that felt insufficient to me is the time we had with BTOB. Two hours is too short. I wanted to stay with them for longer.😭😭

Here goes my collection of freebies that I got from the Melodies on the day of the fan meeting. I can't remember everyone who distributed these but thank you so much! I appreciate it. 😇 To sum up, I got eight group photos, six of Minhyuk, an abundance of Changsub, two of Peniel, two of Sungjae, one of Hyunsik and two of Ilhoon. Only two of Ilhoon guys.😂

My freebies collection 💙

Thank you for everything. This would be an unforgettable experience and memory for me. Genuinely speaking, I still can't move on from the boys. The aftermath of the fan meeting is too strong. It feels as though I was left by someone I love without an explanation. It hurts a lot, I'm badly heartbroken. This is no joke at all, I'm not kidding about this heartbreak. I miss the members a lot, so I keep listening to their songs. But this makes me miss them even more, then I'd feel like crying. But I need to listen to their songs for me to heal my heart. So how am I supposed to move on from them? I wish they had stayed for longer. I'm in love already.😭💔

These memories of meeting with BTOB, is truly a beautiful pain.😔💞

(Don't get me wrong, I loved it, perhaps too much💖)

I'll miss them 😞

Till the next post!💘

5th of September already. Whew.

I just started my third semester this week. So far, so good (because most classes are cancelled). But yes I'm pretty worried because all the subjects seem tough, especially Chemical Thermodynamics.😭 I don't even know why I was so into chemistry back then. I even applied for some chemistry courses during UPU. Now imagine if I actually got into a chemistry course weh I can see the hikmah now.

As the title said, I'm going to talk about climbing a mountain in this post. Hmm I don't think I've ever actually gone hiking before this. Probably during a scouts camping in form six. I don't know where that was but I struggled a lot. Does that count?

Anyway my sisters had been planning this for a while, and they asked me to come with them. I was reluctant to do it. I doubted myself. Could I do this? What if I got too tired while climbing? What if I ended up being the only one left behind? A lot of thoughts went through my mind. But you know what? I ended up being like 에라 모르겠다 and tagged along.

As a disclaimer, I took less than ten photos there because my stamina wouldn't allow me to hold a phone.

On our Independence Day, 31st of August, my two sisters, cousin and I left for Gunung Datuk around 7 a.m.. When we arrived, I felt like giving up already after seeing the mountain standing tall in front of me. Tall isn't even the word since, you know, it was thousands of feet higher than me...

The start of the climb was no joke. Like literally. It wasn't even halfway up when I told my sis that I was going back down alone. I didn't feel good, and imagining how much higher I had to climb just made me sick. I ended up throwing up, and I immediately felt better. But I still wanted to give up because who knew what could happen higher up in the mountain? However my sister persuaded me to continue, telling me how normal it was to be like that. She went through it, so I could do it too. So here went a few more thousands of feet, with 'Pil is waiting for me up there' as an encouragement.😂

When I reached the peak, I felt like it was worth the climb. I was so exhausted, but the view was healing it. We had to climb some ladders to actually reach the top and I almost cried as my sister forced me hahahahaha I was such a scaredy-cat doh I didn't know I was that afraid of heights until that moment. Phew. I gathered up my courage and climbed up anyway, and the view was stunning.



I'm just going to upload this one photo sebab gambar lain semua muka barai.😂
I expected the climbing down to be okay and better than climbing up. But I was wrong. Completely wrong. It was much harder for me (although faster) since the tracks were very steep. Kaki dah menggigil teruk halfway down. I kept wishing a helicopter would pass by and pick me up as it felt like I could fall down anytime. My legs couldn't support my weight so I could barely walk. If I went a little bit faster I would fall over, that's for sure, and that's how extreme it was so I cried.... Don't worry, I made it to the base in the end because of my sisters' support :')

One nice thing that I noticed was how nice people actually are. I saw strangers greeting each other, exchanging small conversations as they passed one another.

It was a great experience for me. It was tough, but definitely worth it.

I made it, guys. I made it, and I'm proud of it. I love myself for not giving up.💖

Till the next post!💞

Here goes my trip to Balai Seni Negara (National Art Gallery)! I just want to post this before my new semester starts😭 Gosh I really don't want this break to end.