Hiluuu I'm backk, signalling the end of my second year at UiTM hehe. I took the final paper last week and phew alhamdulillah I was just so so glad that my fourth semester was over. I desperately wanted the semester to end man the suffocation was real.

Anyway, two days after the last paper, I went on a trip to Ipoh with my family. Coincidentally (or not😏), my birthday fell on our last day in Ipoh. We had a little celebration with a small cake the night before and I just felt thankful for that. Thankful to have my loved ones with me, and thankful that Allah still allowed me more time with them.

Before we went home on Sunday, we dropped by Cameron Highlands just to have all the strawberry dishes we couldn't have last time. Hahaha so last year we went there during Ramadhan (I still wonder why we did that) so we couldn't enjoy the chocolate-dipped strawberries, waffles and all that ugh it was a bit frustrating.😂 This time we came just to eat these and left afterwards. Bruh it's still funny to me.😂😂


Later that night, when we reached Seremban, we went out again together with my bro and grandma (they couldn't come with us for the vacation) for a second celebration. Wee this was the first time that I had two cakes for my birthday. I guess I'm really 22 now. 😂

Regardless, I was actually already content with my birthday since I got to spend it with my family, all day long. I felt grateful (hyped) to have them with me. Be it visiting places, or sitting in the car for hours, I didn't mind as long as my family was around. Thank you mama, ayah, nenek, akak, angah and Iman for existing and staying with me through all these years.😘 Thank you for just being there for me.💕

Man I feel like crying now.😭

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Okay let's move on, shall we? Before that, I need to get ready untuk baper. Lagi dan lagi dan lagi.

Yesterday, I went to watch Dilan 1991 with my sister. Guess what? Gw baper berat. Berat yang teramat. Kejap-kejap menangis eh I couldn't even count how many times tears just rolled down my cheeks. Man it's damn sad like I really ship Dilan and Milea and now whaatttt. I already read on Twitter beforehand, that it wasn't going to be a happy ending. Yet I still wasn't prepared for it. Not just the ending, but wayyyy before that lagi aku dah nangis bruh I was too emotional. Especially when it came to Milea crying in front of her Ibu and Bunda, my emotions just burst like wow I could feel her. EEEE DILAN PUN SATU HAL TAU NI LAGI SATU PUNCA AKU NANGIS.😭😭 In the last scene pun, Milea tak nangis tapi end up aku yang mengalir air mata tak sudah-sudah.😭


I guess the actors just pulled the acts off really well sampai aku baper teruk macam ni. Sampai sekaranglah tak move on lagi. Aih I just want the next movie to come out already. 😞 Meanwhile I'm going to finish reading the three Dilan novels first. Aih I'm so in love. Dilan is cheesy in such a way that makes me cringe, but I still love him because his every word is just unpredictable. Well, excuse me but I've added this Dilan series to the list of my favourite Indonesian movies, along with AADC and London Love Story.🙈

Semoga aku ga terus baper kegini.

"Insyaallah. Doain."

😭💔

Till the next post I guess😭

First:

Have you experienced a situation where random people just enter your dream and you can't stop thinking about him/her when you wake up? It just lingers in your mind for who knows how long. At times I'd dream that I have a crush on someone and when I wake up, I still do and the feeling would stay for days. Dreams can affect my emotions that way.

This morning, I don't know why (well I never did) I had a dream about this person. Let's call him A. I haven't been in contact with him for almost a decade now, and I don't think I will ever be. I ran into him awkwardly in the dream, but we had a small talk. All of a sudden the conversations led to this (sort of):


I remember feeling dumbstruck at that unexpected statement. I was triggered when he talked about asking for his permission, because he was no one to me. But when he said the next sentence, I was angry but dumbfounded at how true the statement was. I was like, he couldn't have known me that well in less than a year. I was puzzled.

I know, I know, it's just a dream. Mainan tidur. But that statement alone made me think a lot. I always avoid social events, unless I really have to go, or I'm the one who wants to go. I know myself that well so why I was hurt by what he said, I have no idea. I kind of hate him for appearing in my dream, although I know it's nowhere near his fault.😟


Second:

Yesterday, I went to Big Bad Wolf for the first time in my life and I ended up buying eight novels for myself :') The price range of the books I bought was in between RM10 - RM15 each doh no wonder I saw people bring boxes of books home when they went to BBW. I feel guilty for my already-purchased books that I haven't yet read ugh I promise I'm going to read them this semester break okay!!

8 mine, 8 sis', 2 bro's

Third:

Remember the SolidWorks project that I talked about in the last post? Alhamdulillah, I'm done with it now!! Both the project and final exam! The project consumed so much of my time. I had to do it for our Mould and Die Design course. If I had done it earlier, I probably wouldn't be as stressed out though. The problem was that I didn't understand, yet didn't even bother to find out how in the world I was supposed to continue with the project until Week 13 came. With two of the seniors' help I was able to make progress, but not quite as I still didn't understand the purpose of the project, and why I was supposed to do stuff that way. The seniors were busy helping my other classmates so I couldn't possibly ask them to explain in detail.

Hence my friends and I decided to ask this friend of ours for help since he was almost done with everything. Sis I tell you, if we didn't come to that decision, we'd be crying right now. He helped us understand the project better, and even helped us assemble the components. I can't even express how grateful I feel for his help, so here's an appreciation post to you.

Sorry that I panicked a lot, and thanks for staying calm and helping me when I did. Thanks for being patient and explaining what you said (again and again) when I couldn't seem to understand. Thanks for letting us steal days that you could've been done with the project, just so you could help us with it. That's the thing that I'm most sorry about, yet very thankful for.

Would I have done the same if I was in your place? A day or two, maybe. But days? I would've had to reconsider that, especially if I wasn't even done with my work yet still. I would've wanted to get my work over and done with before I could help others. I'm insufficient like that. That's the reason I'm so very thankful for what you've done.😭

While doing this project, I found that I panicked a lot when things didn't go as planned. It reached a point when I realized that I was about to panic and I was like, "No, not again, please don't panic. Calm down, I beg you." I only panicked a little but I panicked more when I realized that I was panicking. Now I don't know how people with panic attacks handle them doh the attacks must be awful.😰

To end this post, I'm just going to say that I actually named my project 'Sleepless' because of the nights I spent trying to finish it (also in commemoration of the Sleepless In _______ album😂). Let me introduce you to my baby Sleepless now!

Full assembly. It looks simple but man the energy and time it took me :')

A huge thanks to you and my friends who have been helping me from the beginning until the end. We made it, guys. We made it. All the tears will be worth it, insyaallah. I'm praying that all of us pass this course with flying colours, and none will have to repeat this course :') We have three more exams to go now, hwaiting everyone!!

Till the next post!💘

Hello there hehe it's been super loooonngg since I actually talked about something here. It's the toughest semester yet. Two subjects are killing me currently. I'm done with one of them but I still have a project to finish for the other one.😕 I'm actually, really, scared if I fail anything this semester. They're too hard to score and I can't bear to repeat them in the coming semesters. Like NO. The project that I'm doing is based on SolidWorks ugh I'm still struggling with it. It sounded doable and easy during our first lecture, but now I feel like crying because of this. I can already go home right at this instant, but this project is holding me back. It feels impossible for me to do it by myself.

Do I regret not starting the project much earlier? Yes, I do.

I just wanna go homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee



But anyway, Selamat Hari Raya everyone! It's been a week but as long as it's still Syawal the greeting is valid ok haha. My family's theme for this year was maroon. Frankly I disliked my baju raya at first. I only bought it because while going out with my family, I was the only one left who hadn't found anything to wear at the time (this happens every year tbh😂). At one point we found a baju kurung which I wasn't that fond of, but my sisters said that it was pretty. I felt like my family was getting tired of walking around, in and out of shops, and even I was getting tired and annoyed at myself like WHY can't you just find one outfit WHY?! Hence I decided to just take that baju kurung. I didn't like it since I bought it when I was upset at myself, but on the first day of raya I was like "Oh cantik jugak" HAHAHAHA. Dahlah kau mengada je lebih eh.

I thought of writing a short story and post it here, but unfortunately my creativity has long since left my soul. The last time I actually wrote a short story was probably during my SPM days, both in Malay and English hihi. Maybe I'll start something and Idk if it turns out good, I'll post it here. If not, just forget the fact that I even said it in the first place. But even if I were to write one, it's going to have to wait until I manage to find the time to write about what I did last February hehehe I'M SO EXCITED!! Insyaallah I'm going to start with it this coming semester break hehe💖

I think that's about it. I just wanted to make a short update here since I miss blogging so much.😟 Pray for me and wish me luck for this unfinished project and also final exams that are going to start next week!😋

Till the next post!😸