Assalamualaikum.

I just want to write this, like really, really want to. Or maybe I need to? I don't know.

Well, I just had a really nice dream that I didn't want to wake up from. But it was kind of weird, and in a way was a bad dream as well.

A lot of things happened in those few hours of dreaming. Kind of like a drama going on in my life (a weird kind), except that it's never happened to me before, and I hope it wouldn't because of the bad stuff, but I wish it would too.

The dream itself was indescribable, like literally. I can't exactly remember the details, but I do remember things here and there. I can recall the people but can't tell what's really going on there. And the feeling after I woke up was just overwhelming and I just want to go back to that dream and see what's really happening!

Okay this is weird. The aftermath is just... I don't even know how to say it. Gosh I'm becoming weirder and weirder. I keep thinking about it which is so not me.



My hobby now is dreaming.
Is that weird?

Nah.

Assalamualakum.

Tak kira apa kau buat atau cakap sekalipun, perubahan dalam hidup tetap akan berlaku. Itu suatu benda yang kita tak dapat nak elak. Kadang-kadang orang sekeliling kita berubah, kadang-kadang suasana yang berubah, dan kadang-kadang kita sendiri yang berubah.

Perubahan tu boleh jadi ke arah yang lebih baik atau buruk.

Berubah untuk jadi rajin belajar. Baik.

Berubah dari rajin kepada malas. Buruk.

Tapi perubahan itu tak semestinya sentiasa membawa kesan buruk atau baik. Kadang-kadang tak ada efek pun dalam sesuatu perubahan. Contohnya, pertukaran yang minor dalam rutin yang sama. Macam tukar minat genre buku dari genre A ke genre B.

Sebenarnya, sesuatu perubahan itu baik atau buruk bergantung kepada persepsi masing-masing. Boleh jadi perubahan yang baik untuk kita, adalah perubahan yang buruk untuk orang lain. Misalnya kita naik pangkat. Ya, itu memang perubahan yang baik untuk kita, tapi merupakan perubahan yang buruk untuk pesaing kita.

Lagi sekali aku tekankan, sesuatu perubahan baik atau buruk itu bergantung kepada persepsi seseorang individu itu sendiri. Macam cerita naik pangkat tadi, pesaing tu takkan anggap perubahan yang berlaku itu sebagai benda yang buruk kalau dia bersikap positif dan jadikan itu satu cabaran untuk dia berusaha dengan lebih keras. Kalau mentaliti dia macam tu, benda yang buruk pun boleh jadi baik.

In the end, semua perkara yang berlaku tu memang ada hikmahnya. Jadi bila ada benda buruk jadi pada kita, tanamkan sikap positif dalam diri biar kita tak mudah menyerah kalah, tapi berusaha untuk jadi lebih baik dan teruskan hidup.

Konklusinya, always be positive. Dari situ, baru kita boleh bahagia.





P/S: Result of talking by myself. Daripada bercakap sorang-sorang je, aku fikir lagi baik aku tulis dekat blog. 

Assalamualaikum.

I miss writing. Literally and virtually. I used to have so many ideas popping up in my head about what to write next. I used to express my feelings through writing. I used to make up simple poems when I feel like doing it. Now my writing skills have gone rusty. It's frustrating when I can't even express my thoughts through writing the way I used to do it. Really. It's like WHAT SHOULD I WRITE.

Writing used to be a part of me, part of my own life. Aaaanndd I love books so much! I still remember how I asked my mom for books as my birthday present when I was about 10. That is the reason why I couldn't fathom those who hate reading. Like, why would you hate reading when it's just so much fun? I love how I get absorbed into another world when I read. A whole new world and adventure. Where else can you get that?

When I was in primary school, I was one of the librarians, and I think I have read like half of the books in the library. I remember going to the library instead of the canteen almost every day during recess. It's like an escape to another dimension to meet all the characters and be part of the world myself. That's how big my passion was for reading. Wait, was? Yes, was. Because I admit that passion has reduced as I was growing up. I'm not THAT into books anymore, but it doesn't mean that I don't like to read now. I do love reading, all is well.

I don't have the specific favourite genre for books as well as I don't for my favourite music genre. I like what I like, I don't like what I don't like. It's as simple as that. Well, of course, my favourite books are the Harry Potter series. J.K. Rowling did an amazing work there. But I also have my other favourite books as well. So many of them.

I fall in love with characters too! It's funny how I get so excited about someone but that someone doesn't even exist in real life haha. For example, in If You Could See Me Now, I fell so hard for Ivan's character that I hated to finish the book. The funny thing is that Ivan was not even a real person, more like an imaginary friend in the book. And also to be honest, I only fell for the movie Draco Malfoy, not the book Draco 💖💖

Well, it's raining again. Coincidentally, I just finished reading Beautiful Creatures, and it reminds me of Lena.

Till then.