Assalamualaikum 

A-yo. It's been too long. Wayyyy too long since I last wrote. Almost six months ago.

Setiap weekend rasa nak menaip. Tapi siapalah aku untuk melawan kemalasan dalam jiwa raga ini. Rasa rindu, tapi boleh buat apa je kalau setiap kali nak menaip, rasa malas tu muncul. Saya hanya menurut kata hati.

Kah.

An update from the last post: Alhamdulillah, I survived. It's going to be 8 months soon. Masa berlalu cepat sangat sampai aku terkejut dah nak 8 bulan. Ingatkan baru 6 bulan. Dah macam-macam jadi sejak aku last post dekat sini.

Honestly, aku pun tak tahu nak cakap pasal apa. Tapi mood dah sampai, so aku pilih untuk menaip tanpa henti. Let the thoughts flow into words without a need for thinking.

The one colleague who helped me get through my tough times is resigning this Friday. She's the reason I survived. Now that she's going to leave, I feel a bit lost. Like what's the meaning of life? Haha. When she first announced that she's resigning, I still remember being in denial and shock at the same time. And I started to sob uncontrollably and tried to hide my tears but when my manager said "Don't cry", I cried even harder. I ran to the toilet and cried together with my friend.

Life's tough, you know? But what's life without tests and difficulties? 

I did my MBTI test just now. I expected my MBTI to change because I felt like I've changed since I started working. But nope, I still got an ISFP haha. The reason I was expecting a change is because I used to be an ISFJ. But after my life went downhill and I got back up, it changed to ISFP. 

I'm feeling a bit savage these days. Probably because my ally is resigning, but I've entered that era moreugetda stage. I don't know how I will get by after she leaves. For now, I'm just going to appreciate the 5 days I have left with her. 

I don't know man. I'm just going to face life head on and enjoy the ride.

Till the next post!

(or till kerajinan muncul)